Written by So far, this year has been nothing like what I expected it to be. I know it’s still early to make a judgment, but here I am, contemplating what I should do next. I’m keeping this website because it’s nice to see the evolution and how far I’ve come with so little. It has become so hard for me to put my thoughts into words; I’ve started keeping them to myself, and all I want is to crawl under a rock and never come back. I guess healing from trauma does that to a person. It could also be that I am 30 years old now and feeling a bit overwhelmed, but who am I to say?
One thing is clear: deep down, I am content and happy with my decisions and their outcomes, even though my toxic trait is not allowing me to fully enjoy what I have accomplished. As for how I cope with my existence, I do what I do best, which is creating. Working on projects around the house has helped me address those small details that have bothered me since I moved to this new place. I always thought that painting was excessive and would make an item look cheap, preferring to replace it entirely instead of trying to recondition it, but I was mistaken. Now, I can confidently say that I’ve become quite skilled at painting, and I’m already contemplating what I should do next.
For spring and summer, I’ve chosen to decorate with shades of purple, mostly because purple is one of my favorite colors and because the lavender I planted in my garden is about to bloom. So far, the weather in Denmark these days has been highly unusual. The temperature is high, and there’s no wind. I’m a bit concerned about the fact that it hasn’t rained in a month, and everything is bone dry. Even though this is worrisome, I can do nothing to change it, so I’m planning on enjoying and soaking up all the sun that I missed during the long winter.
Finally, I can see that I’ve managed to write quite a bit of a story about what has happened lately, and I’m hoping to come back soon.
Anca GV 